the shits .
Today I am gonna write something very personal about me and many other people out there. (You’re not alone)
I am 61 kg with a 32 inch waist. 2 years ago I was 45 and a 28 waist size. But in these 2 years what changed wasn’t just my weight and size but something else. My confidence about my appearance.
Keeping my weight gain aside, I thought I was good, I mean it never bothered me much because I was comfortable in my own skin and confident about it too. Also because I never noticed the weight gain slowly taking place. So I never thought about getting back in “shape”.
It never bothered me before that is until it started to be evident.
“Eat less. You just keep on binging.”
“look at yourself, what you were and what you’ve become. Lose your weight”
” You have to get back in shape, look at yourself how weird you look.”
And such thought in my mind went on and on and on. I know I am not FAT fat but for me looking pregnant while wearing a not so lose shirt is being fat cause I wasn’t used to any of this.
My old clothes won’t fit and to buy new ones was a struggle cause I fall in the “neither here nor their” category of fatness.
My notion of Self Concept was taking a backseat in every possible way. I spent more than an hour deciding what to wear not because they didn’t look good on me but because I thought they didn’t.
It took me a year to realize that all this negativity is just bullshit. That I am beautiful in my own twisted way and that I don’t need to be slim and trim to feel good about myself, you know why cause people around me still loved me.
So all the people around there going through what I went through don’t be miserable, be comfortable in what you are.
This song is for all of you out there ,
Hola everybody and welcome to my page again.
Everyone of us have been through and will go through times when all we wanna do is sit, cry and sulk. So today i’ll like to share with you guys 7 songs that i listen to at the time that are a bit gloomy them-self but still soothes my mind i hope you listen and like them.
- Happily (one direction)
- Perfect – Ed Sheeran
- One Call Away – Charlie Puth
- Still Falling for You – Ellie Goulding
- Symphony – Zara Larsson
- Thousand Years – Christina Perri
- Something Just Like This – Chain smokers
I know all of us have such a list comment below the songs you listen to when you are not feeling so good.
Hey there everyone and welcome to my little corner of the internet. I am so happy that you have landed here. Dreamers Lounge is a blog i started to share my view of my life and of others around. Here you’ll find me rambling on and on about life.
I thought to start this blog because since long all my feelings and opinions have been secretly written down on a small and easily concealed journal or a protected file on my laptop, but i figured out its time to let it out to everyone so that you guys out there can connect with it and know you’re not alone or to give me the assurance that neither am i alone the struggle.
I am not a writer, so i cannot promise you a best way to present the blog but i can promise you a space worth spending time on.
i hope you find this place and my writings relatable and just like today come here every time I have something to share with you guys.
till next time,